Forever In School

I am writing a paper on a 3-dimensional form that is created by folding a 2-dimensional pattern. It’s a form of origami, if you will. I have spent days and months writing code and finding the algorithm behind it. I have also created a lot of images and diagrams for the paper. Now is the time that I have nothing else to do except writing the paper.

I mean WRITING. This is the hardest part, at least for me, and for some of the people that I know. This is the part that you need to concentrate, gather all your thoughts, put them into the right order, bind them together, and form an argument. Although it’s very hard to avoid writing nonsense, I am not worried about that. I have a very good and knowledgeable supervisor who won’t allow me to publish my paper, unless he is sure it makes sense and it’s worth publishing. In other words, he won’t allow his student to make fool of themselves.

The interesting thing about writing this paper is that I am observing myself. I am completely aware of my own attempts to avoid writing. I catch myself tricking myself into not writing. (Well, what I am doing right this moment is one of the tricks!!!) Here are some of the other tricks: I stayed at home the other day, because I knew I would have to write if I go to school. I keep finding problems in the images in the paper that need to be fixed, right away! I need to check my emails, my university account, my calender, and my Google reader, not to miss important things! I get very thirsty and sleepy recently, so I have to go to the student lunge to get water and tea. and so on.

Interestingly, I am also aware that it’s normal. It happens to other people too. As long as I manage to write a paragraph or two in between, it’s fine to give my mind some rest. Get some fresh air, or caffeine, or sugar! I do enjoy looking at the paper when I add a new paragraph. I feel really good about it.

So I will continue allowing myself to trick myself. And I will enjoy it.